Narcissistic Abuse Recovery: Imposter Syndrome

“The exaggerated esteem in which my lifework is held makes me very ill at ease. I feel compelled to think of myself as an involuntary swindler.”

Albert Einstein

Everyone can do that, I am not special. It is normal to feel like a fraud when you have been told that you aren’t good enough. That you will fail. These thoughts and feelings of inadequacy will cause you to question your abilities and success. They’ll realize I’m a fake and it will all be over. An intense feeling of anxiety washes over you that forces you to retreat into your self. The self doubt makes you uncertain and removes your feelings of safety. You have to understand that an abuser’s mission is to make you feel like an imposter, because they themselves feel like an imposter. They don’t want you to recognize the power you have within yourself.

“I know the real you” is what they’ll say before putting you down. A narcissist loves to mix lies with truth. You are more than deserving and worthy of the praise and recognition that you deserve. Nearly everyone (82 percent of the population) experiences imposter syndrome at some point in their lives, feeling like they don’t deserve their accomplishments and are a fraud. Including the most highly intelligent, educated, skilled, and competent in the top 1% of the world’s elite. Imagine Maya Angelou feeling incompetent, “I have written 11 books, but each time I think, ‘uh oh, they’re going to find out now. I’ve run a game on everybody, and they’re going to find me out.'”

The Imposter: Understanding Why we Wear the Mask

The Imposter Syndrome Mask

What is Imposter Syndrome? An intense state of mind where you feel confused and ready to be knocked down. You have been tricked into thinking that all the success you earned was undeserved. That even though you stood out from the crowd, your abilities are inferior to others and their perceptions. It’s a self imposed mask that drains your energy. Imposter syndrome is more common amongst females than males, and minority groups. Often because these individual face discrimination that reinforces their low self-worth. Victims of narcissistic abuse often have to wear this mask 24/7 as not even their home is safe.

What Causes Imposter Syndrome? How Narcissistic Attack Patterns Develop Imposter Syndrome

Relationships with narcissists are draining and dangerous. To understand the symptoms you have to first comprehend the root causes and how they lead to the manifestations.

Sabotage: When a narcissist parent feels threatened by your growth, they will resort to sabotage such as demeaning or humiliating you. The worst form of sabotage is when they take credit for or minimize your accomplishments. It makes you feel as though you can not do anything yourself. All your progress will be stolen from you. You may even disengage from any activities that they have discovered. Without practice you become worse at those activities and it just creates another feedback loop of disappointment.

Gaslighting: is the mental and emotional manipulation of a person, usually over an extended period of time, that causes the victim to question the truth of their own thoughts, reality, or memories. “That isn’t what happened and you know it.” The constant questioning of your own abilities probably stems from your narc parents constantly gaslighting you over the smallest issues. Thus, it became second nature to question yourself. To question what you can do. Especially if you were blamed for the narc’s actions. Thi sis what leads to the self-doubt.

What Imposter Syndrome Feels Like: Manifestations and Symptoms

A voice in the back of my mind,
Whispering doubts, unkind.
"You're not good enough," it says,
"You're a fraud, a disgrace."

Imposter syndrome, its grip so tight,
Making me question my day and night.
Am I worthy of all that I've been given?
Or am I just a pretender, living?

My achievements, I can't celebrate,
For fear of being exposed, too late.
My successes, I can't take pride in,
For fear of being unmasked, a grin.

Imposter syndrome, it's a heavy weight,
But I'm learning to fight, not be late.
To recognize my worth, to believe in me,
To break free from this self-doubt's decree.

I'm not perfect, but I'm enough,
I'm worthy of love, and so much more.
Imposter syndrome, I'm letting go,
Of your grip, and letting my light glow.

There are a number of effects that can develop from imposter syndrome non as manifestations and symptoms. Manifestations are the way that imposter syndrome is expressed, like perfectionism. Symptoms would be the negative results such as low self-esteem.

  • Unfit Esteem: I don’t really deserve this. Low self-esteem is too broad of a term to describe imposter syndrome. You know that you can do something, you just feel that the reward received is too much. That you didn’t meet the standards and they’re exaggerating your abilities. That you will be knocked off the pedestal the next time you do it again. That someone else can and will do it better than you.
    • I guess I just got lucky again, I hope it keeps up
    • They’ll find out that I’m a fraud eventually, I’ll just enjoy it while it lasts
    • I didn’t even do anything special, why are they so impressed?
  • Ungracious: They don’t really mean what they say about me. You may dislike compliments and praise. You may feel as if they aren’t truthful. It’s because they actually see who you are instead of what you’ve lied to yourself about. The lies you’ve accepted from the narcissists constant attacks.
    • “Wow, that was so amazing what you did” Right, I’m sure you believe that
    • “You look so good!” I never look good
    • “you are going to be so great when you grow up.” Until my luck runs out.
  • Perfectionism: I have to do it the right way, one mistake is death.
    • What is the right way to do it, what’s the right outcome?
  • Avoidance: Let someone else do it, they’ll be better at it.
    • Is that the right answer? I shouldn’t say anything I don’t want to ruin my one chance
    • I only got it right last time because of luck, I shouldn’t take the chance.
  • Fear of Failure: Do you have an intense fear of being humiliated because of doing something the “wrong” way?
    • I’m not going to prove them right. I won’t try and let them attack me.
    • If I fail, I’ll be worthless again.
  • Fear of Success: Ironically, this is actually rooted in a fear of failure. You are afraid of success because of the idea that you may eventually “fail” so you rationalize that the best way to live is to not try at all.
    • I don’t deserve it, something will come and knock me down eventually. They were right about me.
  • Probing: I bet they won’t like me anymore if I do this. Testing the people who are interested in you. You may intentionally reveal flaws or controversial views to observe whether the person will accept you as you truly are.
  • Worthlessness: I just followed directions and did it, so what…. When you feel like an imposter, all your achievements feel like basic knowledge. It is the result of having you knowledge and skills subtly dismissed and devalued by the narcissist consistently. It can lead to worthlessness based-depression.
    • Why can’t I do anything right, it’s so easy and I still manage to fuck it up
    • If I had just spent more time practicing and study more, more people would have clapped
  • Overcomparison:
    • Why can’t I do it as well as him? What’s wrong with m

Removing the Mask: How to Overcome Imposter Syndrome and Regain Self-Worth

Recovery from narcissism-induced imposter syndrome is an inner battle that requires self-compassion, patience, and support. It is important to treat yourself with kindness and understanding, just as you would treat a friend. By untangling the threads of manipulation, acknowledging the impact of abuse, and reclaiming your identity, you can break free from the chains of self-doubt. You are not an imposter; you are a survivor, capable of healing and embracing your true worth.

Ground Yourself in Reality: Breaking the Fear-Uncertainty-Doubt (FUD) Feedback Loop

Negative feelings are rooted in fear rather than facts. It starts with a anxious thought or anxiety trigger. I don’t belong here. This creates the uncertainty and floods your mind with questions. How did I succeed? What’s going to happen? Am I going to be exposed, will they think I’m a fraud? As the uncertainty grows, the doubt creeps in you. First you begin to doubt your abilities, telling yourself that you got lucky. Then you doubt your decisions, thinking that you shouldn’t have involved yourself. You may even misread the good intentions of others as a trap to reveal you. Stop worrying. You can combat this cycle with exercise.

SWOT Analysis: A tool used to help you identify your strengths, weaknesses, opportunities, and threats. Ask yourself. What are you good at? Where could you improve? What are your areas for development? What challenges could you face to prove your abilities? When thinking of the challenges, be careful not to set yourself up for failure by setting unrealistic goals. Compare yourself to the average instead of the top. This will help you gradually improve your confidence and banish anxiety.

Develop a Empowerment Mindset: Transform your Negative Thoughts into Reflective Thoughts

Stay positive, is toxic. If it were such an easy task, then there would be no such thing as a mental health crisis. The truth of the matter is you never can nor should have a mindset that only sees the Brightside. It causes you to ignore real threats and vulnerabilities. Instead you should cultivate a empowerment mindset. Where you acknowledge the bad but understand that it can get better if you put in the work. A support mindset motivates you to look for evidence. Which is exactly what imposters need.

Empowerment is about action. Use your reflective thought as a springboard for positive action. Whether it’s learning a new skill, seeking advice, or stepping out of your comfort zone, take steps that align with your reframed mindset. It’s what shapes your reality and your self.


Celebrate Your Wins: Keep A record of Success to Remind you in Your Darkest times

Celebrating your successes is a great way to combat imposter syndrome. It can be easy to get caught up in the day-to-day grind and forget to take the time to appreciate our own accomplishments. But when we do take the time to celebrate, it helps us to boost our confidence and remind ourselves of our worth.

There are many different ways to celebrate your successes. You can:

  • Write a post on social media to share your accomplishments with others.
  • Take yourself out to dinner or do something else you enjoy.
  • Buy yourself a small gift.
  • Tell your friends and family about your successes.
  • Reflect on what you learned from your accomplishments.

Celebrating your successes doesn’t have to be elaborate. Even a small gesture can make a big difference. When we take the time to celebrate our successes, it helps us to feel good about ourselves and our abilities. This can help us to overcome imposter syndrome and achieve our goals.

Here are some additional tips for celebrating your successes:

  • Be specific. When you’re celebrating your successes, be specific about what you accomplished. This will help you to focus on your accomplishments and appreciate your own worth.
  • Be grateful. Take some time to reflect on what you’re grateful for in your life. This can help you to appreciate the good things in your life and boost your overall happiness.

Celebrating your successes is a great way to boost your confidence and achieve your goals. So don’t forget to take the time to celebrate your wins, big and small!

Cultivate Self-Compassion: Find the Love Within Yourself

Self-compassion is the practice of treating oneself with the same kindness and understanding that one would treat a friend. It is about accepting oneself for who one is, flaws and all, and offering oneself the same support and forgiveness that one would offer to someone else. Self-compassion helps us to see our mistakes and shortcomings as a normal part of being human, rather than as something to be ashamed of. This can lead to increased self-esteem and self-worth.

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